SUNNY STILE

being engulfed into the gulf...

two ways to go: 1.fight.  2.run.

theoretically, FIGHT of course...i know that..

but i'm too fearful of loss...can't survive from that..

and i don't even have any ideas how to calculate the probability 2 win... astrology may works, whatever, i'm not gonna turn to that... and i'm not crazy enough.. being too rational, the problem a finance student might have.

and not being good at planning, i'm not like someone who have plan a and plan b all the way long...all i can do is suicide attacks, which always screw up everything...

so the situation is, i'm absolutely not gonna run unless the gulf disappears itself...but i'm neither confident nor ready 2 fight...what can i do then?

p.s. just typing all these down and state the question right here has already relieved my discomposure a lot (or a bit? i don't know)... as writing blog is just a kinda mental masturbation(YY) for narcissists, i've fufilled my need to some extent...haha..